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It is my theory that good poetry gets written from experience but I seriously doubt I can see past my feelings. 
Deliriously I come up with lines at all the wrong times and watch them sift finely through my short term memory as I rehearse them on my way back from a cigarette break. I make the effort to furiously commit words to form but I can't... I just can't sometimes... or anymore. 
Rhymes that made sense before I opened the door to where my computer sits disassociate in the suspense between spaces. 
I tiptoe around what inspires me, circumnavigating the fires in my soul that erupt from the sea in spouts of boiling irony, breaking the calmness of the water and tossing the raft I've crafted carefully into a helpless state of readjusting. 
I am living my dream but somehow I'm not conscious, the life that I mean to be in is stalking at my haunches and hiding from view whenever I try to look as though it is trying to avoid making me embarrassed of myself, of who I am trying to become and even as I go now as hard as I can the aching in my thumbs is breaking my concentration and I know I can't get down what I meant to. 
I bow to what I believe in and shuffle my feet in sacred patterns hoping that my prayers will matter in the grand scheme of things, otherwise I'm just a shattered human being leaving pieces of myself in places that I frequent. 

Returning to awareness in a different state of consciousness I launch this pressing need again, I'm depressed and hurting, in all fairness I feel like I'm burning away for good, that no amount of new growth could replace the old wood that I'm throwing away just to heat my heart every day. I'm praying as hard as I can between breaks of seemingly faking it because so much is at stake and if I break the spell for even a moment I'll release hell. I have a minute left before I tell myself to quit trying and go to bed, nothing is going to happen tonight and I'm just going to be alone with my head again. 

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Azurakai
Trickles lead to Torrents
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United States
Current Residence: College
Favorite genre of music: I'm not sure the concept of Genere even applies to music anymore.
Favorite photographer: Clay Showalter
Favorite style of art: Complicated Designs and Concepts of Infinity
Operating System: Dualboot Doze XP/ Ubuntu
Shell of choice: Turtle Shells. (turtleturtleturtle)
Wallpaper of choice: Photos of Turtles
Favorite cartoon character: The Warden
Personal Quote: "I rather dislike it when you burn my possesions, please stop"
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Keldeo-corn Dec 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Holidays! C:
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Shinigami-xiii Dec 24, 2012  Professional General Artist
(-= :+fav: ɹoɟ sʞuɐɥʇ & sɐɯʇsıɹɥɔ ʎɹɹəɯ
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Dr-Ross Dec 18, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Oh yea, Thanks for faving Freya =D
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Azurakai Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
:thumbsup:
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owlfancy Dec 18, 2012  Student Artist
thank you for the faves and the comments :)
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KatrinaTheLamia Nov 21, 2012  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the watch+!
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Azurakai Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Always happy to follow good stuff.
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Myazoma Nov 20, 2012  Hobbyist
Thanks for all the favs!! :hug:
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Azurakai Nov 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
your style is cool, and you're working with some of the same kind of concepts I am right now, so I get a lot out of your work.
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Myazoma Nov 21, 2012  Hobbyist
Same on my side too. It's cool to find someone else who thinks about the same way as I do. :D:D
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